Lyrics
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Every Time You Go Somewhere
| 1. | San Cristobal | San Cristobal
I have not been writing
that many new songs how I wish I could stay longer how I wish I'd never gone You have not been writing me as often as I wished and sometimes I think I left you just to see if I'd be missed I saw my fortune scrawled out up against the wall in a crowded market place in a town I can't recall and the teller told me that I would be young and I would fall but my new friends all assured me that it all was surely false Back at home, you found religion in a dirty crystal ball in the back of a dollar store in that shopping mall I found religion out in San Cristobal now I feel that I've come far enough to give you a call I have not been writing as often as I'd hoped but there are some things you're good at and then some you can't control You have not been visiting I can't say that I mind 'Cause every time you go somewhere you leave somewhere behind I saw my fortune scrawled out up against the wall in a crowded market place in a town I can't recall and the teller told me that I would be young and I would fall but I didn't think he meant so soon so soon at all Back at home, you found religion in a dirty crystal ball in the back of a dollar store in that shopping mall I found religion out in San Cristobal now I feel that I've come far enough to give you a call So I'm calling now but it says I don't got the number right Your body looks to me a way it never has before and is this what's making you so sad, and what you did this for? She said, your body looks to me a way it never has before and is this what's making you so sad, and I can't do this anymore I found religion in a dirty bathroom stall in the back of a liquor store in that mini mall you found religion when you realized you could fall now you say that you've come far enough to give me a call So you're calling now, but I lie and I tell you that I moved Everything's brand new. |
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| 2. | Watercolors | Watercolors
I would have meant it if I'd said it
but I didn't think to say it at the time And you never really said it with your mouth, and only one time with your eyes And you would get it if you get it 'cause I know that you're the type who gets it when they get it and they always get it right I hate that type Now I am sitting in your bed in your bedroom with my new homework machine I am playing with your cat with bits of string and I am waiting patiently You are out with a woman at exhibits about people like me I don't get it Because you don't like art you just buy and sell and you wouldn't give it up if you were getting it well, so I brought this on myself I can't say I disagree you take that woman to exhibits about people like me I am at home with my watercolors filling in my life with you, my life without I am at home with my watercolors while you are out I would have meant it if I'd said it but I didn't think to say it and I'm shy so I hid inside my tee shirt and I looked the other way when you walked by I gathered up my things and I dusted off my bike and I found a quiet place where I could sit and I could write and I wrote this And you would get it if you get it 'cause I know that you're the type who gets it when they get it and they never have to write it on paper not on paper but you never got it, never! not to tell you the truth because you show up to my shows and think I'm singing about you when I'm not I don't get it 'Cause you don't like art you just buy, buy, sell and you wouldn't give it up if you were getting it well, so I brought this on myself I can't say I disagree you bring that woman to my concert and she tells you that she likes me I am at home with my watercolors filling in my life with you, my life without I am at home with my watercolors while you are out All my friends and the issues that we face you want to stick us in a box put us in our place or maybe hang us on a wall then leave me out to dry was I too much of a freak or was I just too much alive I am at home with my watercolors filling in my life with you, my life without I am at home with my watercolors blotting it out |
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| 3. | Baltimore | Baltimore
tomorrow I am leaving for Baltimore
you think I act like Harry Potter like you're Voldemort I don't care what you said you didn't mean it like I did don't even start with me turn up the heat, turn up the heat or get out the kitchen you're like vegan cheese! try as I might, you never melt for me it wasn't quite as funny at the time now in ten minutes I will be ten minutes away part of me thinks I should go back to the folk-punk house and stay everybody was so nice there there were lots of heavy things that stayed in place and I wish that this was more like that but when you feel held back, you slip away and really, I get that sometimes i also feel that way but I'm older now and I know this now it's a game and I can't play because I shoot for the impossible knowing that it won't come and you'd think I would know better now that I am twenty one I've been bored, I've been so bored and I've been numb and dumb and I'm still pretty young besides I'm really getting so adept at preventing my own happiness complacency breeds latency in that space it sits deep in my chest and the thing that beats beneath your breast, has been at rest but I try my best to see how close I can get to it because I get productive when I get upset, hey so now in ten minutes I will be ten minutes away part of me thinks I should leave right now but I sit back and wait I've been bored, I've been so bored and I've been looking for a little bit of heartache but tomorrow I am leaving for Baltimore where it won't bother me not in Baltimore tomorrow I am leaving for Baltimore once more |
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| 4. | New Year's Eve | New Year's Eve
it's a happy new year
I'm making guacamole you couldn't even pick up the fucking phone and call me I don't like my tee shirt I don't like my blue jeans I don't like my attitude, it's gonna be a party it's a happy new year last year was so stupid most of us were drunk and even more of us were puking although I heard a rumor something about bad shrimp don't know how I made it up the stairs to your apartment oh, I remember it oh, climbing up to bed and that's not all that I'm forgetting it's a new year, the last one's ending don't know how I ever made it out here's to nothing ever changing if it were, then I'd be parting ways with all the bad habits I've found but I still hang around I still hang around it's a happy new year I'm eating guacamole you kissed me at midnight 'cause you thought that I looked lonely I don't like my outfit I guess it's not important 'cause I like your four track and the things you record on it it's the time of year now to keep your close ones closest we'll be friends forever and I don't care if you know it it's a happy new year unlike all the rest feels like I am changing and I know it's for the best oh, I remember that and that's not all that I'm pretending it's a new year, the last one's ending all the guacamole that I made browned here's to always, everchanging circumstances we're arranging throwing all our cautions to the ground they only weigh you down I won't let you down but hey, did you know you can check the time your call reaches the other line? hey, did you know that I know you lied? so, board it up don't even try last year is ending just in time I got out alive it's a happy new year here I am again writing in my car and this time I can't pretend that we are friends, we're not friends friends don't do the things we did and the ones you've done since then make me think we've never been when is this night gonna end? are you lying in her bed? all these questions in my head where the whiskey at again? you are discombobulated when you show up at my door leaving glitter on my floor but I don't like you anymore I don't like you anymore I don't like you anymore I don't like you anymore |
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| 5. | Fine! | Fine!
We could get robbed tonight or thrown under a bus
your favorite dog could die and the holidays are rough you've got to nip those tragic feelings in the bud you've got to nip those tragic feelings in the bud you talk it over with your roommates you talk it over with your moms I cry and listen to Beyonce Single Ladies is my favorite song now and I think I'm gonna be fine I'm gonna be good now I'm gonna be everything I always wished I could now I'm gonna be awesome i'm gonna be sure I'm gonna be everything you asked me for and more but I could not be, I could not believe it when I saw you on that subway platform talking down to me and I could not be making that much sense but I'm getting it all out and I hear that's the first step to being fine you're gonna be fine you're gonna be tip top shape and tapping toes and fly you're gonna act awesome and self assured we're gonna seem contemplative, nonchalant and bored and if anybody tries to tell you differently you tell them to come over and talk to me 'cause I don't even know you but I'd take you home with me just to show you all the things in the world that you could be including fine I'm gonna be fine I'm gonna be good now I'm gonna start acting the way I know I should now and then I'll be awesome and then I'll be sure and then I'll be everything you asked me for and more but excuse me, if I don't want you there to share in my new attitude excuse me, I think that I might fly but it's alright it's just 'cause I realized I'm gonna be fine you're gonna be fine we're gonna be fine |
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| 6. | Wait Forever, Baby | Wait Forever, Baby
nothing you have felt before
tonight you're sleeping on the floor it's not the worst place to be at the club at the club you fell in love you lost your mind and you did some drugs or at least that's how it seemed 1, 2, 3 - it's a little bit like that when you go walking by I don't know how to act I try to keep my cool but I never got it back in the first place in the first place and when you look like that I think I know what you are thinking you're a heart attack it makes me wish that I were drinking 'cause I can't sit still and I'm feeling like I might faint oh, it's a leap of faith we're all gunning for a taste of something else that we've never felt before it's a leap of faith and I admit, I love the chase but I won't wait forever, baby, I get bored I won't wait forever, baby I won't wait forever, baby I won't wait forever, not for you I won't wait forever, baby I won't wait forever, baby I won't wait forever, now, would you? I won't wait forever, baby I won't wait forever, baby but I guess there's nothing else to do |
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| 7. | Circus Heart Pt. 1 | Circus Heart Pt. 1
He was racing his way home
running every light trying to get pulled over maybe use his fight or flight and there was not so much a silence as there was a dissonance no one talked about the things that weren't relevant she said: "if you want me I'll be waiting on the fourth ave stop! you can take the heart from your chest to use as a compass when you are lost" and he had never heard before such passionate discourse but no one talked about those things for better, or for worse she said: "I have been your lover, dear I have been your mother, dear I have been the eye of your storm when there was no break in sight and I have been your troubadour singing your praises from shore to shore if your circus heart wants more... good luck, and goodbye" and guess what he made it home on time |
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| 8. | Circus Heart Pt. II | Circus Heart Pt. II
you lock the house
you slam the door you do it so hard your fingers are sore I've seen you act this way before just once before you know, you're right turn out the lights maybe we can make it through the night I hold my tongue I pay the price it's a sacrifice but 1, 2, 3, we're family like an apple falling from a tree and if you cry then I can't sleep and I won't rest until you're lying next to me I have to say, I used to feel a lot like you not long ago you went to school you were so young don't forget where it is you came from I used to worry that I'd never be someone not long ago you learned the rules you learned them twice no one got somewhere by being nice you did your best to get in fights when you wanted more but 1, 2, 3, we're family like an apple falling softly from that godforsaken tree and if you cry then I can't sleep and I won't rest until you're lying next to me I have to say, I used to feel a lot like you not long ago I have to say, I used to feel a lot like you not long ago |
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| 9. | I Got Drunk | I Got Drunk
I got drunk last night
and the night before and tonight I'm gonna get drunk some more it's just so hard when there is nothing else to do it's just so easy when there's nothing else to lose I've got to move I've got the blues I've got some bruises, I don't know where they come from I've got to move I've got the blues I've got to drink 'til I am dead or I am numb but you wouldn't know about all that anymore I got drunk last night and the night before and somehow I ended up outside your door I've got my whiskey bourbon and my chevy suburban writing stupid rhymes in front of your house you come out and kiss me on the mouth I've got to move I've got the blues I've got these bruises, I don't know where they come from I've got to move 'cause I've got the blues I've got to drink 'til I get drunk do something dumb, something dumb progress is in the eye of the beholder once you think it's finished it will roll you right over then you let the rope go and pick up some slack when it gets too close that's when you pull it right back and I swear I'll move 'cause you said the blues and the bruises go away in a year or two but I swear I'll move I swear I'll move, if I have to so proud you pat me on the back singing, hey, I'll drink to that and I'll drink to that |
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| 10. | Weary | Weary
you
you are my brother and I love you like a brother, like I'd ride your bike home after school and fix you peanut butter sandwiches when you're sad because believe me, I get sad sometimes I get so shaky I could lose my mind and I will wait with you in the meantime if you find you're weary if you find you're weak if you find yourself without the comfort that you've come to seek you can count on me you, you are the leader of the pack, it's true without you we would not know what to do I dare to say we wouldn't have a clue no, we'd be clueless without you you have the nicest heart somebody can always there to lend a helping hand drive 3 hours just to see my band if you find you're weary if you find you're weak if you drive all night and don't like what it is you see you can count on me we, we wrote this song in someone else's house when we were on a trip way out of town I had this feeling like I might just drown did you have it too? had no idea that you were part of this you wrote the chorus and you placed the bridge your music has a certain grace in it if you find you're weary if you find you're weak if you try all night and still you just can't write a melody you can count on me yes, it's true I always have to hide my art 'cause if I didn't hide my art then it would lead back to my heart and if I led you to my heart then you would find me sitting there on a pile of all the clothes that I stole from you last year and then I'd start to cry and I won't want to write my feelings, it's alright so I lie make it funny, make it rhyme and I hope that you believe me and that's how I play it live 'cause I think that you believe me miss the real important lines like, how I get so sad sometimes and how I get so shaky like you could just ignore all that if I use the word achey and pretend like it's a love song I don't care that it's not true besides, isn't that what love's about? I'll hide myself behind you I will hide myself behind you I will hide myself behind you I will hide myself behind you I will hide 'cause maybe I'm the one that's weary maybe I'm the one that's weak and now I find myself without the words I really want to speak but you can count on me |
Goodnight Sugarpop
| 1. | Cut it off | Cut it off
If I had my way
every day would be my day I would ask you out you would say "okay!" and I'd come get you at 8 8 'o clock right on the dot 'cause sometimes when i am late then i can't get you to talk and it ruins our whole date and if i had my way we'd go out every night it'd be perfect every time and we'd never ever fight you know, you used to call me up when you were high and I never ever asked you so you never told me why your hair is green, your hair is pink my head is young my heart can't think I drive my car, I ride the bus I stay too long I ask too much Your hair was black 'til it was blue i always had a crush on you you dye it back when you need to i'm still deciding what to do but if i had my way, i would ask you to the prom you would want to meet my mom and you wouldn't even tease me for rhyming words in my songs 'cause i wrote those songs about you but i hope you understand that they were actually about me and i hope that you're not mad cause if i had my way you'd kiss me on the lips and you'd wear that dress you like and i'd wear the suit that fits but when you lie to me you know it makes me sick 'cause your phone didn't die, but your soul did. (chorus) 'cause i wrote those songs about you but I hope you understand they were actually about me and i hope that you're not mad 'cause i wrote those songs about you but you'd better understand they were actually about me and I don't care if you're mad that I wrote those songs about you and I play them at my shows that I write these songs about you and I make sure that you know that I write these songs about you that I play these songs about you that I sing these songs about you that I mean these songs about you that I write these songs- that I write these songs; Goddamn, I'll write these songs Your hair was black til it was blue just cut it off if you want to I couldn't care less what you do |
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| 2. | Dysmorphic | Dysmorphic
I packed my overnight bag a year beforethey say "everyone's waiting for something" this is what I have been searching for do not call the doctors they won't tell you a thing do not call my father as if he knew how I was doing Bandages all around, jello running down your chest hope for the best This is not what I had expected You were not the person I projected on you from the start Now my nerves are a bowl full of porridge drive the last nail and close up this casket and I know it's dramatic but baby, I'm manic and the verdict of late is dysmorphic Like I could be better Like I could be better, I swear and if I develop infection I will scratch you right out of my skin if I come home looking different please do not ask me where I have been I was there, under my skin everything I knew that I would have been for you were there, under my skin everything I did that I'd do again everything I did, oh, I'd do again and again 'cause I could be, I could be better I could be better, I swear I packed my overnight bag a year before they say "everyone's waiting for something" I don't want to wait anymore. |
Dysmorphic
Credits
Writing Credit: Mal & Simon |
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| 3. | Country Song | Country Song
I came home to find you on drugs
I was on the verge of every song I'd ever sung you said oh my gosh it's like I can't escape I am a child of fate and then you threw a plate at me you were so wasted All my life I've been a child of stress you were the worst at best and if I may confess the worst ain't over yet if you call I won't stumble I've been humbled like your bottles, empty in the morning Hold on up, we've got a bleeder on our hands I don't think you understand, get here as quickly as you can I've learned to hate oh, I have grown to love I have learned to be what I hoped I would become and tell me what of you what did you do what did you say what did you leave behind who did you save You came home, I was on the rug you were on the verge of every hole you'd ever dug you said Oh my God I cannot catch a break but I am a child of faith so when you turned away, I just lay in silence Hold on up, we've got a bleeder on our hands I don't think you understand you better do the best you can you'll grow to hate oh, you will learn to love you will learn to be what you hoped you would become and tell me what of me what did i do what did i say what did i leave behind who did i change |
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| 4. | Hypocrite | Hypocrite
I do not smoke cigarettes
I told him with conviction 'cause I've always been asthmatic and I don't support addiction he said, but I always roll my own I said, but I still think that you're a poser He said, I don't sleep in parking lots I've always been a fighter I said that sounds pretty easy when you've got a warm recliner in your parents living room when where you are is where they'll pay the rent and for all your liberating an the lives you say you're saving one would think you would be half as full of shit and for all the rules you're breaking and the progress that you're making I could do without that breed of anarchist I could do without that breed of politic I could do without that breed of hypocrite I could do much more without the likes of this He said, I'll be on that picket line for equality but I hope everyone looks like me and does not treat me differently I said, God damn, you hypocrite he said, I do not take that name so lightly I said, I don't sleep in parking lots I've always been resistant he said, that sounds pretty easy would you just shut up and kiss me I said, aw man, you're no feminist he said, I do not use that word so slightly and for all your liberating an the lives you say you're saving one would think you would be half as full of shit and for all the rules you're breaking and the precedents you're making I could do without that breed of anarchist I could do without that breed of politic I could do without that breed of hypocrite I could do much more without the likes of this |
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| 5. | My Name Is Earthworm | My Name Is Earthworm
I'm so small now
I'm so big now I am awake now and I don't mind I don't mind I'll be your earthworm I will wait here in the dirt for you to come and find me and determine what I'm worth and cut me into two halfs, half one and half two I'll be the person wiping up your tears this afternoon my name is earthworm my name is I don't have a name you can leave me on the sidewalk I just hope a hopscotch game doesn't start anywhere near me 'cause it might squish both my halfs I'll be the person you can always count on for a laugh I had a dream that we all woke up and realized it didn't matter I had a dream that we all woke up and realized we didn't matter and I don't mind I don't mind I'll be your sunscreen you can be my Dr. Phil I can tell you not to worry you can tell me if I'm ill and cut me into two halfs half one and half two but can I keep a quarter, or is this whole thing for you? I could be your wingman while you check out the ladies I could be your waiter, I won't forget the pastries I was a bad waiter and I forgot the pastries tell me you'll forgive me, it wasn't 'cause I'm lazy I had a dream that we all woke up and realized it didn't matter I had a dream that we all woke up and realized we didn't matter and I don't mind earthworms they have no hands and feet who cares if you won't talk to me who cares if you act really mean when we do speak, if we speak earthworms they have no hands and feet who cares if you won't talk to me I am awake now and I don't mind I'm so small now I'm so big now I'm so small now I'm so big now I'm so big |
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| 6. | Waiting In Line | Waiting In Line
I went to a gay bar
and I looked at all the paintings if you see somebody studying paintings in a gay bar, that's me and all the boys were laughing and all the girls were dancing and I thought for a moment, I saw someone in between so, do you want to talk to me? do you want to dance with me? do you want to get drunk and discuss anthropology? I don't really care that much no, I don't care at all I just don't want to be alone when I hit that wall 'cause all of my life oh, all of my life I've been waiting waiting waiting in line so I went to the gay bar and I got myself a haircut I was feeling pretty good thinking I looked like I should and at the door there was a fee and once inside would you believe no one even took a second to take a second glance at me? so, do you want to talk to me do you want to dance with me do you want to get drunk and discuss anthropology? I don't really care that much no, I don't care at all I just don't want to be alone when I take that fall 'cause all of my life I've been waiting waiting waiting in line so I went to the gay bar only stayed an hour or two then I mustered up the courage to come crawling back to you and I know that that's bad etiquette and I know it's pretty low but I realized that I love you and I thought you ought to know so, say that you'll still talk to me say that you'll still dance with me say you want to stay at home and discuss anthropology 'cause I don't really care that much but I'd pretend for you let me say again so it sinks in how I'm sorry and I love you and all of my life in fact, all of our lives we are waiting waiting waiting for the right time |
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| 7. | Suburban Summer Polka | Suburban Summer Polka
you can jog your way to freedom
it's not going to come fast if it even comes at all you can bet that it won't last so you call my way on monday just to make sure I'm alright I think everything is fine until I have to hear that voice of yours and I thumbed my way to philly 'cause I figured, what the hell I was half bored and half dead living home was going well and I do not have to tell you it was not a pleasant ride but you know that if I had the chance I would take it again twice and you can dance your way to romance but it will not get you far and I met some awful dancers who had awfully fancy cars they said that if you have a car then you will always have a date and by then I had a bicycle and that worked just as great 'cause you can ride your way to health but if your insides don't agree then you may as well be eating chips and watching bad tv and you know if that's the case and you are feeling kind of rough then come over to my house and we can beat each other up and stuff and after we will ride but it will be more of a race and i will not let you win so you will punch me in the face and I will lie my way to heaven if it gets me through the doors but I'll take one look around and I'll be dead and I'll be bored and so I'll file a complaint to transfer ASAP when I wake up in the morning I'll be feeling more like me and I am feeling more like me I am feeling more like me oh, I am feeling more I was jogging back for freedom 'cause I'd left her by mistake at the shopping mall I worked at living home was really great and you call me up on wednesday just to get me through the week I decided then and there to keep on jogging 'til I'm free and I am feeling more like me I am feeling more |
